random

well i guess tonight is just a random post after all..din update for quite sometimes..

middle of the night..the time when i was supposed to be on the bed..i was having this shitty feeling in me.. i received an email today..sharing bout life stories.. it asked us to stop and look around us with a different point of view..

i did so..i felt better..or would say, i felt blessed. but after a short while, it doesn't feel the same anymore..wat's wrong with me? i din know..i want to know..

just when u feel u got somebody around..but when u really need one, u dun seem to c anyone here..dont seem to c anyone next to u..no shoulders, no hands..no one..jus nothing..


*thanks daniel..u called at the right time.. i felt much better. love ya. thank God for giving me a hand..thanks for the call.

ti amo?

heard of this song long time ago..

so coincidence to find it in youtube.dun like the male vocalist..but i like this female vocalist..luckily she sings the chorus part... kinda into this song lately..still not understand every single work of this song..need to find some translation..LOLx..

already 630pm..of my sunday..my last resort of weekend..sighz..monday blue again...weeks pass fast it's ady June!!.2009 has reaches it's half milestone..fast enough..it's passing fast for me to catch up with things..

bored..

here i bring u TI AMO...by some Taiwan artistes..

BURST!!!

i really cant take it anymore..i am very tired and exhausted.mentally and physically.. i jus cant take another "things-not-going-my-way" again.. it's a new year, i was anticipating for a new beginning.been praying hard this time around. can YOU pls share my burden? my pain? or at least take it away from me..my wishes are so simple, i am not demanding.

i take promises in a serious manner.. i hate when ppl break my promises..i really do. i got too much of these... esp from the ppl i trust and love the most. Today, i was deeply hurt, a promise was broken, this really matter to me. it wasn't only about a promise but the trust in me..when your loved ones break your promises, it's really bad..impact is drastic.

i really wanted to share what's in my heart, but i cant.. have no idea why.. i need shoulder to cry on. i've been down recently. deep inside my heart, no one knew how it's like. i never disclose.. because i wanted to hide everything away..not for ppl to c, but cover it so i wont realise.

i am tired of being strong and everything around me.. been keeping alot of stuff in me, it's over the limit and now i feel the pressure i gave to myself. i see no point in telling others who dont even understand the real problem i am facing.. in the end, the responses i get will hurt me even deeper.

no one understand me well enough to know what i am talking bout..not anymore...used to have one.. just not here anymore..even you broke my heart tremendously..

Silence of the night,
Makes my sorrow grows,
Tears rollng down my cheek,
Wish u were here to shed...

Mood : Agony
Listening to: "I Have Really Been Hurt" - Jacky Cheung

b l a n k

it's almost 3am now..feeling empty and blank. couldn't make myself to sleep, was tired today after such a hectic schedule.. Didn't go for any plans tonight, dont feel like it. Just wanna stay at home to have some rest. No Sanctuary, No Zouk!! sorry gals, wasn't joining u all in Zouk retro night..Sorry jimmy, ffk u again and again and all over again.

"heartbreaks last as long as u want & cut as deep as u allow them to go..the challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them..when it rains..look for the rainbow.. "

Saw this phrase somewhere on the net..What u think? i like the idea: when it rains, look for the rainbow instead..beautiful and so true, be positive in everything u are doin..no matter how bad a situation can be, there's always a door for you to reach..Door of Hope


In love with this song from JayChou lately..enjoy! hope u all will like it as well... (jiwang-ing alone in the room with this song.. ) ><