last post before New Year 09

wow..just before the end of 2008 many things happened to me..and ppl around me. What is going on?? that's the question running in my head.. but somehow i knew things happen for a reason. as long as we try to view it in a positive way.. anyhow we still have to live thru it ..right?

first met with an accident on my 2nd week of work..den one of my bestie's dad passed away, another bestie's dad met in accident and went thru some surgeries on the next day....worst thing is things happenned in my family. i was tensed and exhausted. mentally and physically... kept praying , hoping things will be over soon, i really need some blessing from YOU. but somehow it seems u didn't hear my prayer..i couldn't concentrate on work, i seriously cant, took EL for almost 4 days to go back home... at least it reduced my worries. Tears kept rolling on my cheek...i was really weak, i couldn't take it. but yet i had to be strong..for sake of the family.Just not the time to be weak..Thank GOD things considered settled at the moment, but i hope nothing will come across anymore.. i just hope GOD get my prayers and fulfill my wishes.. my only New Year wish is to have all angels of PEACE, LOVE & JOY protecting my family..and longevity...*crossfingers*

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i thought wanna put it aside and jus concentrate on what i should be doing right now..i should have concentrate on my dissertation, but i cant help it, all the matters still puzzling in my heart and mind.. just when i tohugh i wanna leave it aside till sat, all matters come to me, because i need to make the decision asap..they need an answer with such time contraint..stress me up lo, before to decide if i want that room, i need to make sure if i'm coming over. mayb im not a multitasking fellow, i just cant take it so much at one time.." A Step At A Time" how i wish i'm given a chance to think bout it later on...afternoon is approcahing, i need to give them an answer.. haizz..yes or no? i dunno

Breakdown

hmm..dunno how to start..of all my plans to start this blog in a happy way with happy blogs..this is a total opposite one. I'm really mentally and physically tired and exhausted..i'm in real agony lately. been thinking alot bout the master programme and c how i can deal with it.. talking bout the trips, all gone case..dun think it'll work out lo..only bout 2 weeks left and i got alot of stuff to make decisions..with time constraint. worse, the one i thought i can count on makes me even worse.. is it too hard to expect someone to listen to u, wholeheartedly, truly and and makes u feel better though no word is uttered.. i really dun feel good, kiinda stress out..poster presentation haih..dissertation..haih.. loads of work..loads of thinking..go for master or not?stay in uk ? go Euro Trip?...am i too sensitive, am i? i guess i am...am jus too sensitive.. am i sarcastic? someone said i was being sarcastic... i guessed i felt sick today..damn headache and my head is heavy...my whole shoulder is in pain...still got poster to rush on..and i got zero work done..sien~~~

new blog..

hi ppl, i wanted to start everything all over again..to edit this blog, to make posts, everything.. here's a place where i'm gonna share my experiences, my life, my probs and my moments with you ppl from all the places around the world..anyone who drop by, plz leave me a msg / comment..share with me..

people, don't forget YoU oNLy LIve oNcE!! enjoy to the fullest, what's done cant be undone,

Don't grieve over the past
For it has been gone

Don't worry bout the future
For it has not yet come

Enjoy the moment now..
For it is called P-R-E-S-E-N-T

=YoU WeRe BoRn to bE lOvEd=


love and cheers,
yvonne