BURST!!!

i really cant take it anymore..i am very tired and exhausted.mentally and physically.. i jus cant take another "things-not-going-my-way" again.. it's a new year, i was anticipating for a new beginning.been praying hard this time around. can YOU pls share my burden? my pain? or at least take it away from me..my wishes are so simple, i am not demanding.

i take promises in a serious manner.. i hate when ppl break my promises..i really do. i got too much of these... esp from the ppl i trust and love the most. Today, i was deeply hurt, a promise was broken, this really matter to me. it wasn't only about a promise but the trust in me..when your loved ones break your promises, it's really bad..impact is drastic.

i really wanted to share what's in my heart, but i cant.. have no idea why.. i need shoulder to cry on. i've been down recently. deep inside my heart, no one knew how it's like. i never disclose.. because i wanted to hide everything away..not for ppl to c, but cover it so i wont realise.

i am tired of being strong and everything around me.. been keeping alot of stuff in me, it's over the limit and now i feel the pressure i gave to myself. i see no point in telling others who dont even understand the real problem i am facing.. in the end, the responses i get will hurt me even deeper.

no one understand me well enough to know what i am talking bout..not anymore...used to have one.. just not here anymore..even you broke my heart tremendously..

Silence of the night,
Makes my sorrow grows,
Tears rollng down my cheek,
Wish u were here to shed...

Mood : Agony
Listening to: "I Have Really Been Hurt" - Jacky Cheung

b l a n k

it's almost 3am now..feeling empty and blank. couldn't make myself to sleep, was tired today after such a hectic schedule.. Didn't go for any plans tonight, dont feel like it. Just wanna stay at home to have some rest. No Sanctuary, No Zouk!! sorry gals, wasn't joining u all in Zouk retro night..Sorry jimmy, ffk u again and again and all over again.

"heartbreaks last as long as u want & cut as deep as u allow them to go..the challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them..when it rains..look for the rainbow.. "

Saw this phrase somewhere on the net..What u think? i like the idea: when it rains, look for the rainbow instead..beautiful and so true, be positive in everything u are doin..no matter how bad a situation can be, there's always a door for you to reach..Door of Hope


In love with this song from JayChou lately..enjoy! hope u all will like it as well... (jiwang-ing alone in the room with this song.. ) ><